When it all gets too much

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What do you do when you feel life is moving too fast? How do you cope with the pressure of not being able to meet your expectations? A few weeks ago, I reached my breaking point. Here is my story of how I let things get out of control and literally break me into pieces. This is not a sad story, but a happy story of how I was able to eventually pick myself up and take control of my own life.

I knew I had reached my breaking point when I had lost interest of absolutely everything. It was almost as though someone or something had vacuumed away all my emotions. I didn’t feel like doing anything, going anywhere, eating anything or talking to anyone. I stayed in pajamas, in bed for 7 whole DAYS!  I basically gave up.

Then on the 8th day, Selam and I talked on Skype. I guess she could tell that something was off about me that day, and she asked me a simple question; “How is your soul?” That one simple question was all it took to make me break down and cry like a baby. What seemed like a harmless coping mechanism of ignoring stress and situations that I wasn’t ready to deal with right when they were first handed to me, was what pushed me to my breaking point.

I knew that I alone wouldn’t be able to fix this. I knew that the only one who could fix this was God, but I hadn’t prayed in over a year. I was frightened to ask Him for help because I hadn’t talked to him in such a long time, and I didn’t even know where to start! “Please help me!”, were the words I started with. That was all it took. Believe me when I say that I am much better today! I know that fully recovering from my nervous breakdown is not something that will magically happen over night. Its going to take time and I am learning to take things one day at a time. The good thing about this experience though, is that it made in get in touch with my spiritual side. I cant speak for everyone, but I personally need hope. I need to believe that there is a great being out there who watches over me and wishes nothing more than peace and happiness for me.

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Please don’t make the same mistake I made. Please don’t pile things up and expect them to somehow magically disappear (because they never do). Take life one day at a time. Life is beautiful! Our biggest failure is failing to appreciate the little things in life because we are too focused on winning the “big prize”

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Some of my simple new rules:

1) Never allow yourself to sleep with unresolved issues. 

2) Never look back at yesterday with “what ifs”.

3) Smile!

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Nardos Tekle

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