Today I am Thankful

Being thankful is something I don’t do enough. I fill my life with endless lists of things that need to be done and goals that need to be accomplished, and as a result, I forget to be thankful for the little things that make life great. Far too often, I forget to take a step back from all the lists and schedules that seem to control my life, and make time for the things and people that matter the most.

I tend to put everything and everyone in my life on my lists and schedules because in my mind, this is my solution to balancing my social life, academic life, and work. For instance, «call mom» is scheduled on my google calendar everyday at 20:00, «Skype with Venjanelle» is scheduled for Fridays, «Facetime with Selam» is scheduled for Sundays and «Viber Abel» is scheduled for Tuesdays. Family and friends get frustrated when they can’t get a hold of me if they call on a day and time other than when they are scheduled. Most of the time, I will just laugh it off and explain why I can’t talk to them in a jokeful manner.

I didn’t realize how my lists and schedules were slowing ruining my relationships and hurting the people I love until recently. I failed to be there for my best friend because according to my schedule, we weren’t supposed to Skype until Friday and only on Fridays. I failed to be there for my brother because when I called him on Tuesday and he didn’t pick up, he had to wait until the next Tuesday to get a hold of me. I failed to share my sisters joy of getting her first apartment because we aren’t scheduled to Facetime on any other day but Sunday.

These are the people that mean the world to me, and I would never have been the person that I am today had it not been for their love, encouragement, faith, and support. Yet, I have been ignoring and pushing them away because they don’t quite fit in my schedules. I guess what I am trying to say is, there are some things in life that can’t and shouldn’t be controlled or put in lists and schedules, and I have had to learn that the hard way.

Having said that, I have created a new and positive list to my collection. I have challenged myself to write one thing that I am thankful for everyday and share it on my blog, Twitter account, Facebook, and/or Instagram. Starting from today, I very thankful for my family, friends, and the people in my life that have all taught me something important about life and somehow always find ways to make me smile.