What I have learned

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Its been a week now since my return to Norway from West Chester, PA, and I have to admit that I am still a little sad. I guess this is what withdrawal feels like? I have been in the states for 10 months straight and it has been amazing! I cant even being to explain how much I have learned not only about living with other people and making friends with all sorts of background, but I have also learned a LOT about myself.

I have to admit that I have not always been kind. Growing up, I was a very mean child. I was mean to friends and even to my own family. But when I moved to Norway at the age of 13, I got a little taste of karma. For three years straight, I experienced bullying and racism. Long story short, after apologize to as many people I could get a hold of on Facebook, I promised myself to always be kind to others and to be considerate of others.

Only problem is that my guilt made me think its okay for people to take advantage of my kindness, which is NEVER okay. What I am trying to say is that I have finally mastered how to stand up for myself and not be a pushover while still being kind and considerate. It took me all these years but I finally realized that no one is going to respect me if I don’t respect myself. No one is going to know how I feel if I don’t speak up. And as selfish as this might sound, I have stopped being a people pleaser and am now working on myself.

Speaking of working on myself, I have always been confident in myself. I have never doubted myself as far as beauty is concerned, or at least thats what I thought. So on the 13th of February (two days before my 21st birthday), I went ahead and chopped my hair. I got a pixie cut with long side bangs and I loved it the first couple of days. About a week after I chopped off my hair, I felt really depressed. I missed my long curly hair terrible and the reaction that my friends and the people around had didn’t exactly help.

I hated myself for being such an impulsive person and hated my new look that I faked to love. Thats when it hit me that I am not that confident after all. I have been lying to myself all these years, pretending to be someone I am not! I was hiding behind my long hair pretending to be overly confident when really I knew nothing about myself besides the compliments I would get from people about my long curly hair.

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Before and after picture of the day I chopped off my hair

As soon as I realized this, I made up my mind to work on myself and how I perceive myself. Its now been three months and I am happy that I chopped my hair. I am happy because chopping my hair off has been a reality check for me. It was forced me to see myself for who I really am, which is not someone I am proud of. I have now started on a new journey that I am pleased to share with the world. I am going natural! No more relaxers! I am going to redefine myself and this is the best time to do so – when I am the most vulnerable I have ever felt my whole entire life.

3 reasons why I love youtube

1) Kid President  

Now here is a 10 year old who will restore faith in humanity! Robby Novak never fails to inspire and give me reasons to smile.

 

2) Superwoman

Lilly Singh aka Superwoman is an absolut inspiration. No matter how sad or how bad you feel, 8 minutes with Superwoman on youtube will turn your frown upside down.

3) kandee Johnson

Putting aside the fact that Kandee is such an inspiring and motivating person, she is also a very talented makeup artist! Whenever you need some inspiration with makeup or life in general Kandee Johnson’s youtube channel is the place to go!

Today

I woke up at 06:30 to take a shower and get ready for work. I had 10 hours of sleep last night, but I still woke up feeling exhausted. I have to keep on reminding myself that I really need the money before moving to Moss.

Anyway… my friends and I went to the  movies. We finally got to watch Man of Steel! I am not a huge fan of super hero movies, but this one is an exception 🙂 I used to read my brother’s comic books when I was younger so I knew what superman’s story is all about, but all I was paying attention to during the movie was Henry Cavill. He is too sexy! 

henry-cavill All in all, watching Man of Steel was a great way to end my day, and it is a movie I enjoyed! 😀

21 Things you might not know about me

1)  I am left handed.

2)  I have ADD and I pretty sure I have OCD.

3) I used to be a very, very, very shy girl.

4) I have watched all the episodes of Friends (tv series) over a hundred time, that I know most of the texts by heart.

5) I LOVE animals! Especially my beloved Arthur.

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6) I have two older siblings who I love!

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Abel and Selam

7) I moved to Norway when I was 14 and now live in a small town called Egersund with my mother.

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8) Although I don’t have any tattoos, I have a slight obsession with them.

9) I am 179 cm tall (5 feet 9 inches).

10) Despite the fact that I am 5.9, I have small feet (for my height). I am a size 38.

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11) Despite the fact that I love my friends and being around people, I also enjoy my own company and like having some time alone.

12) I love reading books!

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13) I dont ever plan on getting my drivers license.

14) I am 19 years old and I still don’t know where my life is heading.

15) I have THE worst cramps when I am on my periods! The cramps I have are so painful, that I have to take a day or two off school and lie in bed thinking: “I would rather die than feel this way.”

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16) I love children!

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17) I cant stand having conversations with people who leave out important information or details.

18) I am a stress starver.

19) My biggest weakness is that I lack patience.

20) I currently work at a grocery store and as a cab dispatcher (part time jobs of course).

21) I am ADDICTED to online shooping!

Ohh.. and I am always smiling 😀

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The secret behind long lasting waves

Sunday is the day when I get to truly relax. I usually deep condition my hair with a mixture of coconut oil and olive oil every saturday night. I then wash it out on Sunday and finally roller set it. I let it air dry for two hours or so, before I finally dry it. I get these amazing waves once I remove the rollers and the waves can last up to five days!

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You are perfect

I came across this amazing video on youtube yesterday. Why have I never heard of Trent Shelton?! This guy is amazing! His words are absolutely beautiful! I wanted to share one of his videos so that more people out there will be touched and inspired by his words. No matter who you are or where you are from, I guarantee that this video will make you smile.